{"id":14322,"date":"2016-12-01T15:34:05","date_gmt":"2016-12-01T12:34:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/109.232.216.219\/~bilimvegelecek\/?p=14322"},"modified":"2018-02-12T12:51:59","modified_gmt":"2018-02-12T09:51:59","slug":"bir-yalnizlik-ugrasi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/2016\/12\/01\/bir-yalnizlik-ugrasi","title":{"rendered":"Bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k u\u011fra\u015f\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

Ki\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131k bir fayda g\u00f6zetmedi\u011fi halde okurlukta ortalamay\u0131 a\u015fm\u0131\u015fsa biraz yad\u0131rgan\u0131r toplulukta. Muhtemelen \u00f6rnek ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z muas\u0131r medeniyet seviyesi toplumlar\u0131na g\u00f6re bizde bir parmak fazla. S\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r di\u011ferleri taraf\u0131ndan. Okuman\u0131n cezaland\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcnah oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenir. Cezas\u0131 budur belki. Oysa okurun s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varmas\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetmesi \u00e7ok daha \u00f6ncedir.<\/em><\/p>\n

Y\u0131llar evvel yine bu derginin sayfalar\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131 okurlu\u011fun ba\u015fl\u0131ca yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n okuryazar bir \u00e7evre, okuduklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00fczerine konu\u015fup tart\u0131\u015fabilece\u011fimiz dostlar oldu\u011funu iddia etmi\u015ftim. Hi\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcphesiz, \u00f6yle s\u00f6ylerkende g\u00f6z\u00fcmde s\u00fcrekli kitaplardan, fikirlerden ve \u015fiirden bahsedilen kalabal\u0131k entelekt\u00fcel toplant\u0131lar\u0131 canlanm\u0131yordu. 19. y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n burjuva salonlar\u0131, 20. y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n Viyana, Paris kahveleri maziye kar\u0131\u015fal\u0131 hayli oldu. \u0130stanbul\u2019dada okuryazarlar\u0131n bir araya geldi\u011fi bir K\u00fcll\u00fckyok art\u0131k. Kitaplardan konu\u015fabilece\u011finiz birka\u00e7 dostunuz varsa ne \u00e2l\u00e2. \u00c7evre okuman\u0131n yard\u0131mc\u0131s\u0131 demi\u015ftim; kendisi de\u011fildir, diyorum. Okumak\u00e7o\u011fu i\u00e7in evvela bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k u\u011fra\u015f\u0131. Kendi kendine bir oyun.<\/p>\n

O pek \u00f6v\u00fclen okuma al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklukta kazan\u0131lmas\u0131 bile kimi zaman yaln\u0131zl\u0131kla ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Peyami Safa\u2019n\u0131n \u00e7ocuklu\u011fu ve ilkgen\u00e7li\u011fi a\u011f\u0131r hastal\u0131klarla bo\u011fu\u015farak ge\u00e7mi\u015ftir. Kitaplar\u0131 vard\u0131r yan\u0131nda. Cemil Meri\u00e7\u2019te oyun arkada\u015flar\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan d\u0131\u015flanmas\u0131na neden olacak d\u00fczeyde g\u00f6rme bozuklu\u011fu vard\u0131r fakat kendi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zahmetin yan\u0131nda okumaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 kitaplar sorun etmemi\u015ftir o ya\u015fta ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 kal\u0131n mercekli a\u011f\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u00fcklerini. Enis Batur yat\u0131l\u0131 okul y\u0131llar\u0131nda yaln\u0131z ge\u00e7irdi\u011fi haftasonlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k anar kitaplarla, yaz\u0131yla ili\u015fkisinin yo\u011funla\u015fmas\u0131ndan bahsederken. \u201cBeteri var\u201d m\u0131 demeli bilemiyorum; paras\u0131z yat\u0131l\u0131 Cemal S\u00fcreya yaz tatillerini bile Haydarpa\u015fa Lisesi\u2019nin yatakhanesinde yaln\u0131z ge\u00e7irmektedir. Muhtemelen \u00e7o\u011funlukla okuyarak.<\/p>\n

Ki\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131k bir fayda g\u00f6zetmedi\u011fi halde okurlukta ortalamay\u0131 a\u015fm\u0131\u015fsa biraz yad\u0131rgan\u0131r toplulukta. Muhtemelen \u00f6rnek ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z muas\u0131r medeniyet seviyesi toplumlar\u0131na g\u00f6re bizdebir parmak fazla. S\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r di\u011ferleri taraf\u0131ndan. Okuman\u0131n cezaland\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcnah oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenir. Cezas\u0131budur belki. Halbuki okuruns\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varmas\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetmesi \u00e7ok daha \u00f6ncedir. Okudu\u011fu kitaplar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden farkl\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r; yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n etkisiyle kitaplara y\u00f6nelmi\u015ftir de olsa olsa kitaplar zenginle\u015ftirmi\u015ftir bu farkl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131. Yoksa sokakta saklamba\u00e7 oynamak, ip atlamak, bisiklet s\u00fcrmek varken ne diye eve, k\u00fct\u00fcphaneye kapan\u0131p okumay\u0131 tercih etsin ufac\u0131k \u00e7ocuk. \u00c7ocuk bile olsa benli\u011finin ve yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bilincine var\u0131r varmaz ondan ka\u00e7\u0131p kurtulma iste\u011fi de beliriverir insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Kendine benzer milyarlarca ki\u015finin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fu yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde dertle\u015febilece\u011fi birileri olmal\u0131d\u0131r elbet,onun da halinden anlayacak.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kasaban\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck halk k\u00fct\u00fcphanesine ilk girdi\u011fimde hepi topubir salon dolusu kitab\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u015fimdiki gibi tan\u0131mlayam\u0131yor olsam bile san\u0131r\u0131m ilk hissetti\u011fim ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcklerini anlatmaya de\u011fer bulup yaz\u0131ya d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, sesini bana duyurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir kalabal\u0131kla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fman\u0131n heyecan\u0131yd\u0131.Halbuki k\u00f6ylerine d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in bir-iki saat boyunca servisin kalkmas\u0131n\u0131 beklerken ertesi g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6devlerini yapabilecekleri masal\u0131, sandalyeli s\u0131cak bir mek\u00e2n arayan birka\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n pe\u015fine tak\u0131larakgitmi\u015ftim k\u00fct\u00fcphaneye. O kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmadan sonra ba\u015f\u0131na oturulup yar\u0131m saatte bitirilecek gibi de\u011filse e\u011fer, yaz tatili gelene kadar do\u011fru d\u00fczg\u00fcn \u00f6dev yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. \u201cDefterimi evde unutmu\u015fum\u201d, \u201cders kitab\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131fta unutmu\u015fum\u201d gibi bahanelerle s\u0131k s\u0131k ge\u00e7i\u015ftirirdim \u00f6\u011fretmenimi. Yalanlar\u0131m\u0131n inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 oldu\u011funu sanmam. Neyse ki derslerim fena olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan veya s\u0131ra arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n annesi olmas\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcs\u00fc hayli y\u00fcksekti Fatma \u00f6\u011fretmenin.<\/p>\n

Dede Korkut hikayeleri, \u00e7ocuk masallar\u0131, Kemalettin Tu\u011fcu\u2019nun kaderine boyun e\u011fmeyerek kendi yolunu \u00e7izen azimli k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckleri, Jules Verne\u2019ing\u00f6klerde Fatih Robur\u2019la, denizler alt\u0131nda Kaptan Nemo ile birlikte okuru \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolculuklar, \u0131ss\u0131z adada iki y\u0131l s\u00fcren okul tatilleri, bir iddia \u00fczerine 80 g\u00fcnde tamamlanmak \u00fczere yola \u00e7\u0131k\u0131lan d\u00fcnya turlar\u0131, kimi zaman Kaptan Nemo ve Nautilus\u2019uyla tekrar kar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011f\u0131m esrarl\u0131 bir adada devam eden ser\u00fcvenler, pek \u00e7ok klasik roman\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in uyarlanm\u0131\u015f halleri bir anda okuldan, derslerden uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131vermi\u015fti beni.<\/p>\n

Herkes ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n baz\u0131 d\u00f6nemlerinde kendini yaln\u0131zm\u0131\u015f gibi duyumsayabilir. \u00c7ocuklukta kitaplar\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131na kap\u0131 aralam\u0131\u015fsabu yaln\u0131zl\u0131k hali, \u00e7ocuklukla birlikte de tam olarak sona ermiyor. Sonralar\u0131 uzun yaz tatillerini evde ge\u00e7irirken, liseyi yat\u0131l\u0131 okurken de kitaplardan uzak kalmad\u0131m. Annemi \u00fczmeyecek notlar almama yetecek kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ktan sonra genellikleokuyarak ge\u00e7irirdim zorunluve s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 et\u00fct saatlerinin geriye kalan k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131. Okur kalabal\u0131\u011fa kar\u0131\u015fsa da bir yerden sonra yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n biraz\u0131n\u0131 bile isteye kendine saklamaya, muhafaza etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor galiba.Yoksa ilk gen\u00e7likte de onca heyecan\u0131n, gerilimin aras\u0131nda nas\u0131l vakit ayr\u0131ls\u0131n da ahbap olunsun\u00a0 Orhan Veli\u2019yle, Aziz Nesin\u2019le,JackLondon\u2019la, Zola\u2019yla, belki biraz da Tolstoy, Balzac, Dostoyevski ile? Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k de\u011fildir art\u0131k s\u00f6z konusu olan. Ya\u015fayan \u00e7evreye paralel ba\u015fka bir \u00e7evre daha vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ya olgunluk \u00e7a\u011f\u0131? Herkesin hayat gailesi i\u00e7inde kitaplarla aras\u0131na az \u00e7ok mesafe girmesinden sonra? Ressam Y\u00fcksel Arslan\u2019\u0131nat\u00f6lyesine kapanarak belli bir d\u00f6neme veya fikre yo\u011funla\u015f\u0131p, okuduk\u00e7a, ara\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131k\u00e7a tarihin farkl\u0131 d\u00f6nemlerinden kafa dengi dostlar edindi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemesi dikkatimi \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. Ger\u00e7ekten de i\u015flerinebak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Sokrates, Darwin, Marx, Nietzche\u2019nina\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr sanki onunla birlikte ya\u015famaya devam eden \u00e7a\u011fda\u015flar\u0131 oldu\u011fu. Montaigne g\u00fcnd\u00fczlerinin \u00e7o\u011funuk\u00fct\u00fcphaneye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fatosunun kulesinde yaln\u0131z ge\u00e7irir kitaplar\u0131yla ve kendi kendisiyle fikrendidi\u015fmek i\u00e7in. Adalet A\u011fao\u011flu bir masa ba\u015f\u0131nda bile kitaplar\u0131n co\u011frafyas\u0131nda uzak \u00fclkelere do\u011fru nas\u0131l seyahate \u00e7\u0131k\u0131labilece\u011finden dem vurur. K\u0131sacas\u0131, vazge\u00e7meyen i\u00e7in oyun devam ediyordur.\u201c\u00d6\u011frenmek bir ser\u00fcven olarak kalmal\u0131d\u0131r, yoksa \u00f6l\u00fc do\u011fmu\u015f say\u0131l\u0131r\u201d diyorCanetti. Bir ba\u015f\u0131na k\u00e2\u015fiflik de bunu gerektirir zaten.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ki\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131k bir fayda g\u00f6zetmedi\u011fi halde okurlukta ortalamay\u0131 a\u015fm\u0131\u015fsa biraz yad\u0131rgan\u0131r toplulukta. Muhtemelen \u00f6rnek ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z muas\u0131r medeniyet seviyesi toplumlar\u0131na g\u00f6re bizde bir parmak fazla. S\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r di\u011ferleri taraf\u0131ndan. Okuman\u0131n cezaland\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcnah oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenir. Cezas\u0131 budur belki. Oysa okurun s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131na varmas\u0131, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetmesi \u00e7ok daha \u00f6ncedir. Y\u0131llar evvel yine bu derginin sayfalar\u0131nda s\u0131k\u0131 okurlu\u011fun ba\u015fl\u0131ca […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":74,"featured_media":13057,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[191,513,515],"tags":[210,1577,1623],"class_list":["post-14322","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-154-sayi","category-kitapcil","category-nautilus","tag-kitap","tag-okur","tag-okuryazar"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t