Televizyon i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f bir edebiyat program\u0131nda Do\u011fan H\u0131zlan\u2019\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda konuk olarak Cemal S\u00fcreya oturuyor. Do\u011fan H\u0131zlan giri\u015fte seyirciye tan\u0131tmak i\u00e7in biyografisini sunuyor \u015fairin. Do\u011fum y\u0131l\u0131, siyasal bilgiler fak\u00fcltesi mezuniyeti, emeklili\u011fi hak edecek kadar uzun s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f y\u00fcksek b\u00fcrokratl\u0131k, Yeditepe \u015eiir Arma\u011fan\u0131 ve TDK \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fc, Papir\u00fcs dergisini y\u00f6netmi\u015f olmak, \u015fairlik yan\u0131nda yazarl\u0131k, denemecilik u\u011fra\u015f\u0131… S\u00f6z s\u0131ras\u0131 kendisine ge\u00e7ti\u011finde, \u201cBa\u015ftan alal\u0131m\u201d dedikten sonra \u00e7arp\u0131c\u0131 bir \u00f6zet sunuyor Cemal S\u00fcreya: \u201c1931 y\u0131l\u0131nda do\u011fdum. 1937 y\u0131l\u0131nda annem \u00f6ld\u00fc. 1944 y\u0131l\u0131nda Dostoyevski\u2019yi okudum. O g\u00fcn bug\u00fcnd\u00fcr huzurum yoktur. Biyografim bu kadar.\u201d Do\u011fan H\u0131zlan\u2019\u0131n deyimiyle \u201ckendi a\u011fz\u0131ndan resmi biyografisi\u201d bu kadar Cemal S\u00fcreya\u2019n\u0131n. Stendhal, Balzac, Tolstoy de\u011fil de Dostoyevski\u2019nin ad\u0131n\u0131 anmas\u0131n\u0131n bir \u00f6nemi vard\u0131r elbet ama \u00f6ncesinde huzurunu ka\u00e7\u0131ramam\u0131\u015f hangi yazarlarla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemiyoruz. Dostoyevski derken hangi roman canlan\u0131yordu acaba zihninde? 1944\u2019te kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 hangisiydi? \u00d6l\u00fcler Evinin Hat\u0131ralar\u0131 m\u0131, Yoksullar m\u0131, Karamazovlar m\u0131, yoksa Budala m\u0131? Belki de Su\u00e7 ve Ceza, ama onun T\u00fcrk\u00e7ede ilk bas\u0131m tarihi 1945 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor. Haf\u0131zas\u0131 S\u00fcreya\u2019y\u0131 yan\u0131ltm\u0131\u015f olabilir mi? Bir kaynakta Karamazovlar\u2019dan \u00e7ok etkilendi\u011fi belirtiliyor ama kendisi \u00f6zellikle onu anmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re, hepsini veya birka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 art arda okumu\u015f mudur? Annesini 6 ya\u015f\u0131nda kaybetmi\u015f 13\u2019\u00fcnde bir \u00e7ocuk, kendisinde bu kadar yer edecek ne ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olabilir bu metinleri okurken? Bir k\u0131sa yaz\u0131yla at\u0131p tutarak alt\u0131ndan kalkamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015f\u00fcpheci hafiye sorular\u0131n\u0131 bir tarafa b\u0131rakal\u0131m. Baz\u0131 yan\u0131tlar\u0131 da edebiyat tarih\u00e7isi bulsun Orhan Veli\u2019nin dedi\u011fi gibi.<\/p>\n
Etrafl\u0131 bilgi ve somut kan\u0131tlar olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re bu k\u0131sa ama geni\u015f otobiyografinin anlam\u0131na dair ben de tahmin y\u00fcr\u00fctebilirim. S\u0131radan bir okuma deneyimi de\u011fil s\u00f6z konusu olan. Cemal S\u00fcreya \u00e7ocuk ya\u015f\u0131nda Dostoyevski ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 bence okurlu\u011funun milad\u0131 kabul ediyor. Bug\u00fcn bize ne kadar \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de o d\u00f6nemin okur \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n hayli erken b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnde bulundurmal\u0131y\u0131z.<\/p>\n
\u201c9 ya\u015f\u0131nda okumaya,<\/p>\n
10 ya\u015f\u0131nda yazmaya merak sard\u0131m.<\/p>\n
13\u2019te Oktay Rifat\u2019\u0131,<\/p>\n
16\u2019da Melih Cevdet\u2019i tan\u0131d\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
Orhan Veli de b\u00f6yle bahsetmiyor mu kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131n ayn\u0131 ya\u015flara denk gelen d\u00f6neminden. \u00d6zellikle ta\u015frada b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f pek \u00e7ok yazar\u0131n \u00e7ocukluk an\u0131lar\u0131nda 10-15 ya\u015f aras\u0131 okumalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6nemli bir yer kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmek zor de\u011fil. Okurlu\u011fun bu anlamda ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmenin, konu\u015fman\u0131n, yazman\u0131n da ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r. S\u00fcreya\u2019n\u0131n okurlu\u011fuyla birlikte iflah olmaz huzursuzlu\u011funun da milad\u0131n\u0131 ayn\u0131 tarih saymas\u0131ysa dikkate de\u011fer. Okumaya y\u00fckledi\u011fi anlama i\u015faret ediyor. S\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u00fc ve d\u00fcnya sava\u015f\u0131 atmosferini ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f bir \u00f6ks\u00fcz \u00e7ocuk huzursuzlu\u011funun bilincine b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yazar\u0131 okuyarak var\u0131yor. Ayr\u0131nt\u0131ya girmemesine bakacak olursak \u015fairli\u011fini, yazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yay\u0131nc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, m\u00fccadelesini bu huzursuzlu\u011fa b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcyle d\u00e2hil ediyor.<\/p>\n
S\u00fcreya i\u00e7in ya\u015fam, Dostoyevski\u2019yi okumakla ba\u015flayan engin bir huzursuzluktan ibarettir. Daha ba\u015fka neler okudu\u011funu \u015fiirlerinden, yaz\u0131lar\u0131ndan kestirebiliyoruz az \u00e7ok. Fark\u0131na vard\u0131ktan sonra huzursuzlu\u011funun \u00fczerine giderek, onu i\u015fleyip dokumak i\u00e7in daha da \u00e7ok okuyarak, daha \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek ge\u00e7irmi\u015ftir \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc. Bu \u00e7abada ba\u015fat eylem okumaya dair oland\u0131r. Romanla ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, \u015fiirle devam etmi\u015f, d\u00fcnyay\u0131, tarihi, insan\u0131, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019yi okumu\u015ftur. Etraf\u0131n\u0131 saran d\u00fcnyaya p\u00fcr dikkat bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u015fiirlerinde oldu\u011fu kadar 99 Y\u00fcz\u2019\u00fcn denemelerinde de a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Her \u00e7e\u015fit sanat gibi edebiyat\u0131n da e\u011flence pazar\u0131n\u0131n birer unsuruna d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fclmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde baz\u0131lar\u0131na tuhaf gelebilir. Asl\u0131nda end\u00fcstriyel mutluluk etkinliklerininkinden farkl\u0131 bir gayesi vard\u0131r okuma u\u011fra\u015f\u0131n\u0131n. S\u0131k\u0131 okurun \u00f6mr\u00fc kendi ad\u0131na konu\u015ftu\u011funu sand\u0131\u011f\u0131, konu\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 umdu\u011fu birilerini tan\u0131maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmakla ge\u00e7er. Bir a\u015famada g\u00f6z\u00fcnde hoca veya rehber olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kar yazarlar onun i\u00e7in. Okur olarak dahi kendi sesinin kimilerininkine \u00e7ok benzese de asla onlar\u0131nkiyle ayn\u0131 olamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hisseder. Dolay\u0131s\u0131yla bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n onun ad\u0131na konu\u015fmas\u0131 da pek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildir. Hi\u00e7bir ya\u015fam di\u011feriyle \u00f6zde\u015f de\u011fildir. Herkesin ya\u015fam\u0131 biricikse herkesin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn de\u011ferli olma imk\u00e2n\u0131 da vard\u0131r. Cemal S\u00fcreya, Dostoyevski ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131nca susmaya de\u011fil, yazmaya, kendi ad\u0131na konu\u015fmaya karar vermi\u015ftir. Huzursuzlu\u011funu sahiplenmi\u015f, derdini s\u0131rtlam\u0131\u015f, ta\u015f\u0131yabildi\u011fince de ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Bilmek huzursuzluktur bir bak\u0131ma. Okumak, anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaksa huzursuzlu\u011fu araman\u0131n ba\u015fl\u0131ca yollar\u0131ndan biridir. Ba\u015fka bir \u015fairin, \u0130smet \u00d6zel\u2019in tan\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da bu y\u00f6nde de\u011fil midir?<\/p>\n
\u201cYaln\u0131z arayan bilir ac\u0131mas\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
Aramamak ac\u0131mamak demektir<\/p>\n
K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsenecekse<\/p>\n
Memnuniyet k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmsenmelidir<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00f6nmekten memnuniyeti<\/p>\n
\u0130nsanlar\u0131n utanc\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmekten\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Televizyon i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f bir edebiyat program\u0131nda Do\u011fan H\u0131zlan\u2019\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda konuk olarak Cemal S\u00fcreya oturuyor. Do\u011fan H\u0131zlan giri\u015fte seyirciye tan\u0131tmak i\u00e7in biyografisini sunuyor \u015fairin. Do\u011fum y\u0131l\u0131, siyasal bilgiler fak\u00fcltesi mezuniyeti, emeklili\u011fi hak edecek kadar uzun s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f y\u00fcksek b\u00fcrokratl\u0131k, Yeditepe \u015eiir Arma\u011fan\u0131 ve TDK \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fc, Papir\u00fcs dergisini y\u00f6netmi\u015f olmak, \u015fairlik yan\u0131nda yazarl\u0131k, denemecilik u\u011fra\u015f\u0131… S\u00f6z s\u0131ras\u0131 kendisine […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":74,"featured_media":35915,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5079,38,513,515,510],"tags":[4733,5157],"class_list":["post-35914","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-186-sayi","category-dergi-sayilari","category-kitapcil","category-nautilus","category-surekli-bolumler","tag-cemal-sureya","tag-huzursuzluk"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t