Rus Edebiyat\u0131 denince benim akl\u0131ma hep b\u00fcy\u00fck balo salonlar\u0131nda yap\u0131lan valsler, klasik m\u00fczik, so\u011fuk ve karl\u0131 zamanlarda ekmek almaya dahi para bulmak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan fakir insanlar, zarif ama soluk renklerde y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f k\u0131yafetleriyle, d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ama vakar\u0131n\u0131 koruyan kad\u0131nlar gelir. Bug\u00fcne kadar biriktirdiklerimden olsa gerek\u2026 Annesi gibi piyanist olan Sone\u00e7ka yetenekli olmas\u0131na yeteneklidir ancak babas\u0131z bir \u00e7ocuk olmas\u0131 ba\u015fta olmak \u00fczere, d\u00f6nemin ko\u015fullar\u0131na da ba\u011fl\u0131 olarak olduk\u00e7a fakir ve zorlu bir hayat ya\u015far.\u00a0 Gen\u00e7li\u011fin verdi\u011fi umutlar, paras\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sivri di\u015fleri aras\u0131nda h\u0131zla \u00f6\u011f\u00fct\u00fclmektedir. Annesiyle olan ili\u015fkisi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda hemen hi\u00e7 sosyal \u00e7evresi olmayan Sone\u00e7ka, \u00fcnl\u00fc opera \u015fark\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 Marya Nikolayevna\u2019yla tan\u0131\u015farak onun e\u015flik\u00e7isi olunca d\u00fcnyas\u0131 yava\u015f yava\u015f de\u011fi\u015fmeye ba\u015flar. Marya Nikolayevna zengindir \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u015fini bilen bir t\u00fcccar ile evlidir, g\u00fczeldir, zariftir, y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde hep ayn\u0131 sosyal \u00e7evrede olman\u0131n getirdi\u011fi avantajla kim bilir belki de Sone\u00e7ka\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi zay\u0131f y\u00f6nlerini \u00f6rtmeyi bilen, sevilen, aranan bir ki\u015fidir. Yani Sone\u00e7ka\u2019n\u0131n sahip olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, pek \u00e7o\u011funu g\u00f6rene kadar hayal bile etmedi\u011fi her \u015fey Marya Nikolayevna\u2019n\u0131n ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda serilidir. \u00d6nce Avrupa turnesinde \u015fark\u0131c\u0131ya piyanoda e\u015flik etmek niyetiyle i\u015fe giren Sone\u00e7ka, k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede kendi hayat\u0131 ile Marya Nikolayevna\u2019n\u0131n hayat\u0131 aras\u0131ndaki u\u00e7urumu g\u00f6r\u00fcr ve sahip olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feylerin sorumlusu Marya Nikolayevna\u2019ym\u0131\u015fcas\u0131na ona \u00f6fke duymaya ba\u015flar. Bir yandan kendisine \u00f6nem vermesini, kendisine ihtiyac\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131, biraz da onu kontrol alt\u0131na alabilece\u011fini umarak beklerken bir yandan da bir a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yakalayarak ona ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirmenin, m\u00fcmk\u00fcnse onu avucuna d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmenin hayalini kurmaktad\u0131r. Zaman i\u00e7erisinde pek \u00e7ok \u015fehir ve \u00fclkeye beraber gidece\u011fi bu \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 onun t\u00fcm hayat\u0131n\u0131n ana nesnesi, neredeyse ya\u015fama amac\u0131 olacakt\u0131r. Kitab\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131nda italik harflerle yazan bir c\u00fcmle bize Sone\u00e7ka\u2019n\u0131n Marya Nikolayevna\u2019ya kar\u015f\u0131 olan hislerinin bir y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc apa\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6sterir: \u201cOnun i\u00e7in vazge\u00e7ilmez, yeri doldurulamaz olmal\u0131y\u0131m, sonuna kadar sad\u0131k, kendimi hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0130nsano\u011flunun do\u011fas\u0131 m\u0131d\u0131r yoksa bizim toplumumuza has bir duygu mudur bilmiyorum ama \u00fclkemiz insan\u0131nda s\u0131kl\u0131kla \u015fahit oldu\u011fum duygu durumunu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131 bu uzun \u00f6yk\u00fc bana. Hani \u201cBen niye bu kadar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck maa\u015f al\u0131yorum bunca y\u0131ll\u0131k e\u011fitimime kar\u015f\u0131n?\u201d diye sormaz da \u201cDoktorlar niye o kadar \u00e7ok maa\u015f al\u0131yor?\u201d, \u201cKom\u015funun arabas\u0131 niye benimkinden daha iyi?\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr ya kimi insan, Sone\u00e7ka da Marya\u2019n\u0131n kendisinden daha g\u00fczel, daha zarif, daha zengin, daha mutlu olmas\u0131n\u0131 sorgular. Hayat\u0131n adaletsizli\u011fini kavrayabilece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz kimi yerler hari\u00e7 sanki su\u00e7lu olan hep Marya Nikolayevna\u2019d\u0131r. Bir yandan bu haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcrekli bilenir, durmaks\u0131z\u0131n onun ipli\u011fini pazara \u00e7\u0131karacak, kocas\u0131 Pavel Fyodorovi\u00e7\u2019e kar\u015f\u0131 rezil edecek, zor durumda b\u0131rakacak bir s\u0131rr\u0131 ke\u015ffetmek i\u00e7in Marya Nikolayevna\u2019n\u0131n hayat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zler. Tesad\u00fcflerin \u00f6n\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir isim, gizli bir a\u015fk\u0131n emarelerini aramak i\u00e7in s\u00fcrekli tetikte olmas\u0131na sebep olur. Belirsiz bir i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fc ile bu a\u015fk\u0131 ke\u015ffedip Pavel Frodorovi\u00e7\u2019in y\u00fcz\u00fcne vurmak isterken zaman\u0131n ak\u0131p gidi\u015fi hem Marya Nikolayevna\u2019ya hayranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hem de onun hayat\u0131na duydu\u011fu k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131 art\u0131r\u0131r. Nihayet o s\u0131rra erdi\u011finde ise hayat ona planlar\u0131n\u0131 ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirme imk\u00e2n\u0131 verecek midir?<\/p>\n
\u00c7arl\u0131k Rusya\u2019s\u0131n\u0131n toplumsal dokusu, Bol\u015fevik Devrimi ve arkas\u0131ndan gelen d\u00f6nemin pe\u015fi s\u0131ra Birinci D\u00fcnya Sava\u015f\u0131\u2019ndan \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f Sovyetler\u2019in ekonomik s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131, halk\u0131n yoksullu\u011fu, i\u015fsizlik, her d\u00f6nem her yerde i\u015fini bilip kervan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcden kurnaz t\u00fcccarlar, vars\u0131l ile yoksul aras\u0131ndaki u\u00e7urum, bohem hayat\u0131n f\u00fctursuzca harcad\u0131\u011f\u0131 servetler\u2026 Arka fonda b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 okumak, hissetmek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn. Ama yine de hik\u00e2yenin ana temas\u0131 insan\u0131n duygular\u0131n\u0131 anlatmas\u0131, ki\u015finin var olma sebebini bulmak i\u00e7in kimi zaman ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 buhranlar\u0131 ve bunlar\u0131n sonucunda yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesnetsiz ama\u00e7lar\u0131 sahipleni\u015fi. Metin bir yandan Sone\u00e7ka\u2019n\u0131n peri\u015fanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fclmemize neden olurken, s\u00fcrekli etraf\u0131ndakilerle k\u0131yaslama yapmak u\u011fruna kendi de\u011ferini ke\u015ffedemeyip ba\u015fka hayatlar\u0131n fig\u00fcran\u0131 olan insanlara kar\u015f\u0131 da hafif bir \u00f6fke duygusu yarat\u0131yor. Bu tip insanlar\u0131n \u00f6zellikle kendi hayatlar\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131l heba ettiklerini kitab\u0131n sonunda i\u00e7i burularak okuyan tek ki\u015fi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma eminim. Kay\u0131p bir hayata \u00fcz\u00fclmemek \u00e7o\u011fu ki\u015finin \u00fcstesinden gelebilece\u011fi bir durum de\u011fil \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Nina Berberova St. Petersburg\u2019dan Paris\u2019teki s\u00fcrg\u00fcn g\u00fcnlerine savrulan hayat\u0131n\u0131n etkilerini E\u015flik\u00e7i K\u0131z<\/em>\u2019a yans\u0131t\u0131rken, insan evlad\u0131n\u0131n en sa\u011fl\u0131ks\u0131z duygular\u0131ndan birini, k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131, ki\u015finin kendini tan\u0131maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131yla beraber bir karakter yaratarak tamaml\u0131yor. Kontrol edemedi\u011fimiz pek \u00e7ok duyguyla hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc nas\u0131l \u00e7izdi\u011fimizin fark\u0131na varamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6zler \u00f6n\u00fcne seriyor. Bize de kitab\u0131 okurken kendini var etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n \u00f6nemini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek, belki de kimi zaman d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz hatalar\u0131m\u0131zla y\u00fczle\u015fmek kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n E\u015flik\u00e7i K\u0131z, Nina Berberova,\u00c7ev. Roza Hakmen, Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2019, 94 s.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Rus Edebiyat\u0131 denince benim akl\u0131ma hep b\u00fcy\u00fck balo salonlar\u0131nda yap\u0131lan valsler, klasik m\u00fczik, so\u011fuk ve karl\u0131 zamanlarda ekmek almaya dahi para bulmak i\u00e7in \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan fakir insanlar, zarif ama soluk renklerde y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015f k\u0131yafetleriyle, d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ama vakar\u0131n\u0131 koruyan kad\u0131nlar gelir. Bug\u00fcne kadar biriktirdiklerimden olsa gerek\u2026 Annesi gibi piyanist olan Sone\u00e7ka yetenekli olmas\u0131na yeteneklidir ancak babas\u0131z bir \u00e7ocuk […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":742,"featured_media":41343,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[513,5947,510,511],"tags":[5261,5980],"class_list":["post-41315","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kitapcil","category-olaganustu-nisan-sayisi","category-surekli-bolumler","category-yayin-dunyasi","tag-can-yayinlari","tag-eslikci-kiz"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t