{"id":53267,"date":"2021-12-31T00:00:01","date_gmt":"2021-12-30T21:00:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/?p=53267"},"modified":"2021-12-30T22:34:16","modified_gmt":"2021-12-30T19:34:16","slug":"inanmiyorum-bitmedi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/2021\/12\/31\/inanmiyorum-bitmedi","title":{"rendered":"\u0130nanm\u0131yorum, bitmedi"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>G\u00fcl soldu\/\u00c7i\u00e7ek kopar\u0131ld\u0131\/Deniz durdu\/G\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fmuyor\/Tohum da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\/Bah\u00e7e kurudu\/Ser\u00e7e gelmiyor\/Dal k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\/Su dondu\/R\u00fczg\u00e2r esmiyor\/Gazino kapand\u0131\/Ay \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor bulan\u0131k\/G\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fuyor \u015f\u00fcpheli\/Ser\u00e7e geliyor yaral\u0131\/R\u00fczg\u00e2r esiyor isteksiz\/\u0130nanm\u0131yorum bitmedi.(1)<br \/>\n\u00c7ocukken annem okumu\u015ftu bu \u015fiiri bana. Siyasete kafam\u0131n yetece\u011fi bir ya\u015fta de\u011fildim (belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 de\u011filim), \u201cHay\u0131r\u201d\u0131n ilkesel g\u00fcc\u00fcnden haberim yoktu. Toplum bilincine ermi\u015f de\u011fildim, \u00e7ekirdek aile kafam\u0131 yeterince kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu; kenetlenmi\u015f halk\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan \u201cHay\u0131r\u201d\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc bilmiyordum. Ama \u00e7ocuk kalbinin b\u00fct\u00fcn adanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla tutunmu\u015ftum bu \u015fiire. \u201cHay\u0131r\u201dda bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k vard\u0131, seziyordum bunu. Bitmedi\u011fine inanmaman\u0131n, bah\u00e7eye ser\u00e7elerin gelece\u011fini, yaral\u0131 ser\u00e7enin iyile\u015fece\u011fini umman\u0131n verdi\u011fi bir g\u00fc\u00e7, hatta bir onur vard\u0131. Hay\u0131r diyebilmenin verdi\u011fi onur. Yeter diyebilmenin verdi\u011fi onur. \u0130nsan olman\u0131n, insanca ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n onuruydu bu; \u015fimdi g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.<br \/>\nBug\u00fcnlerde s\u0131k s\u0131k okuyorum bu \u015fiiri. G\u00f6zlerim doluyor dizelerin g\u00fcc\u00fcnden, hayk\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in zor tutuyorum kendimi: HAYIR! B\u0130TMED\u0130! Sonra di\u015flerim s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131, t\u0131rnaklar\u0131m avu\u00e7 i\u00e7ime ge\u00e7mi\u015f, bir kez daha okuyorum \u015fiiri. \u0130flah olmaz bir karamsardan umutlu s\u00f6zler beklemesin kimse. Ama yine de\u2026 \u0130nanm\u0131yorum, bitmedi.<br \/>\nBu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazarken Gelibolu\u2019da bir gencin daha intihar etti\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendim. Son \u00fc\u00e7 ay i\u00e7inde ikinci gen\u00e7 intihar\u0131 bu. Biri on yedi ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131, biri yirmi. Bu gen\u00e7leri \u00f6ld\u00fcren umutsuzluk, zifiri karanl\u0131k; bu gen\u00e7leri \u00f6ld\u00fcren art\u0131k do\u011fmayan g\u00fcne\u015f. Bu gen\u00e7leri \u00f6ld\u00fcren kimsenin \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle \u201cHay\u0131r, bitmedi!\u201d diye hayk\u0131ramamas\u0131. Bu gen\u00e7leri \u00f6ld\u00fcren \u00e7o\u011fumuzun i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e bitti\u011fine inanmas\u0131. Bu gen\u00e7leri \u00f6ld\u00fcren \u00fclkeyi bu karanl\u0131\u011fa teslim etmi\u015f olmam\u0131z.<br \/>\nDeniziyle orman\u0131yla, geyi\u011fiyle s\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fcyle do\u011fam\u0131z katledilirken, \u00fclke parsel parsel sat\u0131l\u0131rken, halk a\u00e7l\u0131\u011fa mahk\u00fbm edilirken, gen\u00e7ler umutsuzluktan \u00f6l\u00fcme s\u00fcr\u00fcklenirken; tam da bu kadar bitmi\u015fken hayk\u0131rmak gerek: Hay\u0131r! \u0130nanm\u0131yorum, bitmedi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bitmesine izin veremeyiz.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">***<\/p>\n<p>Martin Beck serisine daha \u00f6nce bu k\u00f6\u015fede yer vermi\u015ftim. Ama serinin sekizinci kitab\u0131n\u0131, <em>Kilitli Oda<\/em>\u2019y\u0131 okuyunca tekrar de\u011finmek ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz oldu. Ke\u015fke sab\u0131rl\u0131 davran\u0131p b\u00fct\u00fcn seriyi okuduktan sonra genel bir de\u011ferlendirme yapabilseydim\u2026 Ama ne m\u00fcmk\u00fcn, heyecanl\u0131 ruhlar taraf\u0131ndan ele ge\u00e7irildim. Ve san\u0131r\u0131m \u2013 Martin Beck (ve daha bir\u00e7ok \u015fey) s\u00f6z konusu oldu\u011funda \u2013 bu ilk de\u011fil.<br \/>\n<em>Kilitli Oda<\/em> toplumsal ele\u015ftiriyle dokunmu\u015f, bezgin bir insan ruhunun ilk k\u0131m\u0131ldan\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla \u0131\u015f\u0131yan, klasik kilitli oda kurgusunun t\u00fcm lezzetini veren ve zenginle\u015ftiren bir \u00f6yk\u00fc. Bo\u015fanman\u0131n ve a\u011f\u0131r bir yaralanman\u0131n ard\u0131ndan ya\u015fama yeniden y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nen Martin Beck b\u00fcrokrasinin ve aptall\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcz sorunlar\u0131yla u\u011fra\u015f\u0131rken, su\u00e7un ve su\u00e7lunun do\u011fas\u0131na ili\u015fkin hedefi vuran g\u00f6zlemler yaparken hayranl\u0131ktan \u00f6te bir yak\u0131nl\u0131k duyuyor okur ister istemez. Yara karde\u015fli\u011fi, umut karde\u015fli\u011fi, ak\u0131l karde\u015fli\u011fi gibi bir \u015fey.<br \/>\nDaha \u00f6nce belirtmemi\u015f, eksik b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015fsam: Bige Turan Zourbakis\u2019in \u00e7evirisi son derece ak\u0131c\u0131, k\u0131l\u00e7\u0131ks\u0131z. Edit\u00f6rel \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma da bir o kadar \u00f6vg\u00fcye de\u011fer.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">***<\/p>\n<p>Bu ay Erik Vogler\u2019le tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. On be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bu arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131z pek yan\u0131n\u0131zda, y\u00f6renizde istemeyece\u011finiz ergenlerden. S\u0131ra d\u0131\u015f\u0131 huylar\u0131, tak\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ve k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcmseyici bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla ger\u00e7ek bir \u00f6m\u00fcr t\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc. Ama kafa zehir. Ve d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan bak\u0131nca (yani okuyunca) pek keyifli.<br \/>\nBeatriz Os\u00e9s\u2019in yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131, Zeynep Ata\u015f\u2019\u0131n (hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek) \u00e7evirdi\u011fi <em>Erik Vogler\/Ve Beyaz \u015eah\u0131n Su\u00e7lar\u0131<\/em> gen\u00e7lik polisiyesi dal\u0131nda \u00f6zg\u00fcn ve g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir kitap. Olay \u00f6rg\u00fcs\u00fc ve ak\u0131\u015f\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc, karakterler, bana sorarsan\u0131z, daha da g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc. Edilgen (hani neredeyse yok) bir baba, h\u00f6t demeyi bilen ama sevecen ruhlu bir babaanne, hazm\u0131 zor, kelimenin tam anlam\u0131yla \u201cdi\u015fli\u201d bir arkada\u015f ve huzur bulamam\u0131\u015f bir hayalet\u2026 \u00dcst\u00fcne Erik. Ha, bir de bunlar yetmezmi\u015f gibi ac\u0131mas\u0131z bir katil. Kaosa ho\u015f geldiniz.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">***<\/p>\n<p>Bu yaz\u0131y\u0131 haz\u0131rlarken <em>Kuzey Orman\u0131nda Bir Gece<\/em>\u2019yi yeniden okudum. Buna ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131; yaz\u0131n\u0131n da benim de.<br \/>\n\u00d6zge Akkaya\u2019n\u0131n s\u00f6zc\u00fckleri, Mavisu Demira\u011f\u2019\u0131n \u00e7izimleriyle ya\u015fam bulan <em>Kuzey Orman\u0131nda Bir Gece<\/em> dayan\u0131\u015fman\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc, birlikteli\u011fin verdi\u011fi umudu kaybedince, korkuya teslim olunca insan\u0131n neye d\u00f6nece\u011fini anlatan g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir \u00f6yk\u00fc. G\u00fcne\u015fli k\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcn sakinleri kendilerini, yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e bildikleri ama tan\u0131kl\u0131k ettikleri s\u00fcrece ses \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131klar\u0131 (\u201c\u00d6nce Yahudiler i\u00e7in geldiler, sesimi \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131m\u2026\u201d) bir kapan\u0131n i\u00e7inde bulurlar. Onlar\u0131 di\u011ferleri pahas\u0131na hayatta kalmaya zorlayan bu kapan, korku ve yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n kapan\u0131d\u0131r asl\u0131nda.<br \/>\nKendini kurtarmak m\u0131, birlikte kurtulmak m\u0131? Can derdine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp \u00f6tekini kurban etmek mi, birlikte sava\u015fmak m\u0131? Gitgide daralan odalarda, gitgide azalarak sa\u011f kalmak m\u0131 yoksa el ele verip, olanca g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fczle \u201cHay\u0131r!\u201d diye hayk\u0131rmak m\u0131? Karanl\u0131\u011fa, zorbal\u0131\u011fa, bir avu\u00e7 insan i\u00e7in milyonlar\u0131 feda eden doymak bilmezlerin zulm\u00fcne boyun e\u011fmek mi yoksa insanca ya\u015famak m\u0131?<br \/>\nBana sorarsan\u0131z; inanm\u0131yorum, bitmedi.<br \/>\nHer sayfas\u0131 esin dolu bir ay dilerim.<\/p>\n<p><strong>D\u0130PNOT<br \/>\n<\/strong>1) S\u00fcreyya Berfe, \u201cHay\u0131r\u201d.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Kilitli Oda, Martin Beck Serisi 8; Maj Sj\u00f6wall, Per Wahl\u00f6\u00f6, \u00c7ev. Bige Turan Zourbakis, Ayr\u0131ks\u0131 Kitap, 400 s.<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>Erik Vogler ve Beyaz \u015eah\u0131n Su\u00e7lar\u0131, Beatriz Os\u00e9s, \u00c7ev. Zeynep Atba\u015f, Bilgi Yay\u0131nevi, 155 s.<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>Kuzey orman\u0131nda Bir Gece, \u00d6zge Akkaya, Resimleyen Mavisu Demira\u011f, Para\u015f\u00fct Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 50 s. <\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>G\u00fcl soldu\/\u00c7i\u00e7ek kopar\u0131ld\u0131\/Deniz durdu\/G\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fmuyor\/Tohum da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131\/Bah\u00e7e kurudu\/Ser\u00e7e gelmiyor\/Dal k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\/Su dondu\/R\u00fczg\u00e2r esmiyor\/Gazino kapand\u0131\/Ay \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor bulan\u0131k\/G\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fuyor \u015f\u00fcpheli\/Ser\u00e7e geliyor yaral\u0131\/R\u00fczg\u00e2r esiyor isteksiz\/\u0130nanm\u0131yorum bitmedi.(1) \u00c7ocukken annem okumu\u015ftu bu \u015fiiri bana. Siyasete kafam\u0131n yetece\u011fi bir ya\u015fta de\u011fildim (belki h\u00e2l\u00e2 de\u011filim), \u201cHay\u0131r\u201d\u0131n ilkesel g\u00fcc\u00fcnden haberim yoktu. Toplum bilincine ermi\u015f de\u011fildim, \u00e7ekirdek aile kafam\u0131 yeterince kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu; kenetlenmi\u015f halk\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan \u201cHay\u0131r\u201d\u0131n [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":632,"featured_media":53268,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8120,38,513,510,7178],"tags":[8154,8153,8155],"class_list":["post-53267","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-213-sayi","category-dergi-sayilari","category-kitapcil","category-surekli-bolumler","category-ucuncu-tekir-sahis","tag-erik-vogler-ve-beyaz-sahin-suclari","tag-kilitli-oda","tag-kuzey-ormaninda-bir-gece"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53267","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/632"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=53267"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53267\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/53268"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=53267"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=53267"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=53267"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}