{"id":54347,"date":"2022-04-01T00:00:15","date_gmt":"2022-03-31T21:00:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/?p=54347"},"modified":"2022-03-29T17:53:46","modified_gmt":"2022-03-29T14:53:46","slug":"pismanliklar-kitabi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/2022\/04\/01\/pismanliklar-kitabi","title":{"rendered":"Pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar Kitab\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

Her nedense hayatlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi mutluluklar\u0131m\u0131z, heyecanlar\u0131m\u0131z, sevgilerimiz ya da ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131zla yaz\u0131lmaz. \u00c7o\u011fumuzun hik\u00e2yesi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcnde \u015fekillenir. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar kitab\u0131d\u0131r.
\nTakdir edilmek, \u00f6vg\u00fclere bo\u011fulmak isteriz ama bizzat biz, kendimiz kendi resmimizi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zla \u00e7izeriz. Ve o resme bakt\u0131k\u00e7a takdir edilmek i\u00e7in duydu\u011fumuz istek azg\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r; hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015fat arzusu olup \u00e7\u00f6reklenir tepemize. Ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n be\u011fenisi dizginleri eline ge\u00e7irdi mi ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz olarak artar pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z \u2013 hele de \u015fu sosyal medya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda.
\nBazen s\u0131radan ya da (hatta) ne\u015feli bir g\u00fcnde, durdu\u011fum yerde inlerim. Bir anda akl\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fen, haf\u0131zamda keskinle\u015fen pi\u015fmanl\u0131klardan biridir bu sesin sahibi. Nereden geldi\u011fini, neden geldi\u011fini anlamam ama o an\u0131, o pi\u015fmanl\u0131k ta\u015f gibi oturur kalbime. Beni ele ge\u00e7irir, adeta yo\u011furur; inlemelerim k\u00fcfre d\u00f6ner, kafam\u0131 duvarlara vuras\u0131m gelir. (Neyse ki genellikle olay\u0131n tam bu noktas\u0131nda evdeki kedi-k\u00f6pek cemiyetinden biri sokulur yan\u0131ma, bir kuyruk darbesiyle savu\u015fturur kara bulutlar\u0131.)
\nBazen s\u0131radan ya da (hatta) ne\u015feli bir g\u00fcnde, kendi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131ma doyamay\u0131p ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131rtlan\u0131r\u0131m. Kendi kan\u0131n\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 almak gibi, \u00e7arp\u0131k bir keyif verir bu. Ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerinden kendimi yat\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rcas\u0131na i\u015flerim hik\u00e2yeyi, i\u00e7ime katar\u0131m. Ve sonra bu yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan da pi\u015fman olur, kendi hik\u00e2yeme d\u00f6nerim. Uzun g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda, en g\u00fczeli yine de benim \u00f6z pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131md\u0131r \u2013 kimse onu benden alamaz.
\n\u0130nsan nas\u0131l girdi bu pi\u015fmanl\u0131k d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcne? Baz\u0131 fikirlerim var ama hepsi pek acemi hen\u00fcz, sat\u0131ra d\u00f6k\u00fclmeye haz\u0131r de\u011filler. \u015eimdi s\u00f6ylesem, yazsam sonra pi\u015fman olurum, biliyorum.
\nAma tekir \u015fah\u0131s\u0131n neden bu ay pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 diline dolad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyebilirim: Gece Yar\u0131s\u0131 K\u00fct\u00fcphanesi<\/em>.
\nYa\u015famla \u00f6l\u00fcm aras\u0131nda bir k\u00fct\u00fcphane var,\u2019 dedi. \u2018Bu k\u00fct\u00fcphanedeki raflar sonsuza kadar gider. Her kitap ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f olabilece\u011fin ba\u015fka bir hayat\u0131 ya\u015fama \u015fans\u0131 sunar sana. Farkl\u0131 se\u00e7imler yapm\u0131\u015f olsan, \u015fu an nas\u0131l bir hayat\u0131n olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u2026 Pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 telafi etme \u015fans\u0131n olsayd\u0131, baz\u0131 konularda farkl\u0131 davran\u0131r m\u0131yd\u0131n?\u201d
\nPi\u015fmanl\u0131k telafi edilebilen bir \u015fey mi? Yama tutar m\u0131? Sanm\u0131yorum. Pi\u015fmanl\u0131k d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131kman\u0131n, gece yar\u0131s\u0131 k\u00fct\u00fcphanesinde sonsuz se\u00e7enek aras\u0131nda tutsakl\u0131ktan kurtulman\u0131n tek yolu pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar kitab\u0131n\u0131 elinden b\u0131rakmak. Ya\u015faman\u0131n sadece bir yolu oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenir: ya\u015famak. Belki pi\u015fmanl\u0131k i\u00e7in de bu ge\u00e7erlidir. Belki pi\u015fman olmaman\u0131n tek yolu pi\u015fmanl\u0131ktan kurtulmak, kendine ac\u0131man\u0131n o da\u011flayan h\u0131rkas\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnden atmakt\u0131r. (Olmuyorsa krizleri atlatmak i\u00e7in kedi-k\u00f6pek cemiyetine evinizi a\u00e7man\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6neririm.)
\nMatt Haig\u2019in pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar, se\u00e7enekler ve \u00f6zsevgi \u00fcst\u00fcne kurgulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 Gece Yar\u0131s\u0131 K\u00fct\u00fcphanesi<\/em> ya\u015fam\u0131 bir metin olarak ele alan, bu yan\u0131yla s\u00f6z\u00fcn sonsuz olana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve yarat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da kutsayan bir roman. Hatta bana sorarsan\u0131z alttan altta pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zla bar\u0131\u015fman\u0131n bir yolunun da s\u00f6z\u2019den ge\u00e7ti\u011fini ima ediyor: okumak da yazmak da insan\u0131n kendiyle bar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flar. (Ama iflah olmaz pi\u015fmanl\u0131k sevdal\u0131lar\u0131 i\u00e7in bir kez daha malum cemiyeti i\u015faret ediyorum.)
\nK\u0131van\u00e7 G\u00fcney kitab\u0131 o kadar g\u00fczel, o kadar ezgili bir dille T\u00fcrk\u00e7ele\u015ftirmi\u015f ki yazar kadar \u00f6vg\u00fcy\u00fc hak ediyor. Domingo ekibinin elinden \u00e7\u0131kan kitap tertemiz, son derece \u00f6zenli \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 her sayfada kendini belli ediyor.<\/p>\n

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Ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z di\u011ferleri \u00fcst\u00fcnden \u015fekilleniyor. Kendimizi di\u011ferlerinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnden g\u00f6r\u00fcp yarg\u0131l\u0131yoruz; di\u011ferleriyle mesafemiz belirliyor benli\u011fimizle aram\u0131zdaki uzakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u2013 onlara yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a uzakla\u015f\u0131yoruz, onlardan uzakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a yakla\u015f\u0131yoruz. \u00c7o\u011funlukla di\u011ferleri konu\u015fuyor bizim ad\u0131m\u0131za, bizim a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131zdan. Di\u011ferleriyle aram\u0131zda karanl\u0131k, havas\u0131z bir alan var. Sigara duman\u0131na bo\u011fulmu\u015f bir oda gibi. Ka\u00e7am\u0131yor, orada soluyoruz ya\u015fam\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ki, sigara ve yitip giden umutlar\u0131n kokusu; soludu\u011fumuz bu. Iskalanm\u0131\u015f baharlar\u0131n solu\u011fu; k\u00f6m\u00fcr duman\u0131na bo\u011fulmu\u015f kentlerin k\u0131\u015f\u0131.
\nEmre Ocakl\u0131\u2019n\u0131n ilk \u00f6yk\u00fc kitab\u0131 beni o di\u011ferlerine, o k\u0131\u015flara ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 \u2013 mart\u0131n bitmeyen ayaz\u0131 da buna yard\u0131m etti ku\u015fkusuz. Ve Di\u011ferleri <\/em>kendini d\u0131\u015fta b\u0131rakanlar\u0131n naif k\u0131r\u0131lganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bar\u0131nd\u0131ran ama s\u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc cesaretle s\u0131rtlayan \u00f6yk\u00fclerden olu\u015fuyor. Emre\u2019nin \u00f6yk\u00fcleri tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, avucumuzun i\u00e7in gibi bildi\u011fimiz yerlerde olmad\u0131k sorular \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za. Di\u011ferlerinin sesini \u2013 bizi bast\u0131ran sesini \u2013 duyuruyor; di\u011ferlerinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnden kendimizi g\u00f6rmemizi sa\u011fl\u0131yor. Di\u011ferlerine soruyor bizi, mutsuz bir daktiloya, uzak bir seyirciye, bo\u011fulmu\u015f duvarlara. Seyir teras\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor okuru ama bizzat teras\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015faret etmekten de geri kalm\u0131yor. Ve b\u00f6ylece her \u00f6yk\u00fcde bir sorgulama alan\u0131 yarat\u0131yor: Ben kimim? Di\u011ferlerine ra\u011fmen ben kimim? Ya o di\u011ferleri kim?
\n\u0130\u015fin asl\u0131, Emre\u2019yi y\u0131llard\u0131r tan\u0131r\u0131m, \u00f6yk\u00fclerini y\u0131llard\u0131r okurum. Ve Di\u011ferleri<\/em> kendi yolunda akan, kendi yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 in\u015fa eden \u00f6yk\u00fclerinden ba\u015far\u0131yla derlenmi\u015f bir kitap. Bana sorarsan\u0131z, karanl\u0131k odalarda di\u011ferlerinin yarg\u0131lar\u0131yla bi\u00e7ilmi\u015f ya\u015fant\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hik\u00e2yesini Emre\u2019nin kaleminden okumaya devam edece\u011fiz \u2013 Ve Di\u011ferleri<\/em> bunu vaat ediyor.
\nHer sayfas\u0131 esin dolu bir ay dilerim.<\/p>\n

Gece Yar\u0131s\u0131 K\u00fct\u00fcphanesi, Matt Haig, \u00c7ev. K\u0131van\u00e7 G\u00fcney, Domingo Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, s. 282.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ve Di\u011ferleri, Emre Ocakl\u0131, Epona Kitap, s. 95. <\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Her nedense hayatlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi mutluluklar\u0131m\u0131z, heyecanlar\u0131m\u0131z, sevgilerimiz ya da ba\u015far\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131zla yaz\u0131lmaz. \u00c7o\u011fumuzun hik\u00e2yesi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar d\u00f6ng\u00fcs\u00fcnde \u015fekillenir. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hik\u00e2yesi bir pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar kitab\u0131d\u0131r. Takdir edilmek, \u00f6vg\u00fclere bo\u011fulmak isteriz ama bizzat biz, kendimiz kendi resmimizi pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zla \u00e7izeriz. Ve o resme bakt\u0131k\u00e7a takdir edilmek i\u00e7in duydu\u011fumuz istek azg\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r; hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015fat arzusu olup \u00e7\u00f6reklenir tepemize. Ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n be\u011fenisi dizginleri eline ge\u00e7irdi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":632,"featured_media":54348,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8275,38,513,510,7178],"tags":[7222,8318,7296,8319],"class_list":["post-54347","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-216-sayi","category-dergi-sayilari","category-kitapcil","category-surekli-bolumler","category-ucuncu-tekir-sahis","tag-anil-ceren-altunkanat","tag-gece-yarisi-kutuphanesi","tag-ucuncu-tekir-sahis","tag-ve-digerleri"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t