{"id":58537,"date":"2023-06-01T00:00:44","date_gmt":"2023-05-31T21:00:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/?p=58537"},"modified":"2023-05-30T17:06:22","modified_gmt":"2023-05-30T14:06:22","slug":"cakir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/06\/01\/cakir","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7ak\u0131r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cO, yaln\u0131zca <\/em>vard\u0131. Orda. Ya\u015fam\u0131n i\u00e7inde.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>Her \u015fey hoyratla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda duru \u00f6yk\u00fclere olan ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z art\u0131yor. Her yeri endi\u015fe ve \u00f6fke b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 Endi\u015fe, ya\u015fam\u0131n temel d\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc haline geldi\u011finde. Ellerimiz kayg\u0131dan hissizle\u015fti\u011finde, g\u00f6zlerimiz ya\u015fam\u0131n kendisini g\u00f6rmeyecek kadar k\u00f6rle\u015fti\u011finde; s\u00f6zc\u00fckler yetmedi\u011finde, sesler bir t\u00fcr kakofoniye, komik \u0131sl\u0131klara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 An\u0131lar bile rengini de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011finde. Kalbin kuyusunda sadece bulan\u0131k bir karanl\u0131k g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cOlanak: S\u00f6zc\u00fckler.<\/p>\n

Olanaks\u0131z: Hangisi?<\/p>\n

Olanak: An\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Olanaks\u0131zl\u0131k: S\u00f6zc\u00fckler.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7imiz kat\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda duru insanlara olan ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z art\u0131yor. Ellerimizi daha s\u0131k y\u0131kar hale geldi\u011fimizde\u2026 Sokak kedilerini sevmek akl\u0131m\u0131za bile gelmedi\u011finde; sevecen bir dokunu\u015fun eksikli\u011fini art\u0131k hissetmez oldu\u011fumuzda. Nas\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcreklerimiz ve akl\u0131m\u0131z. Sevgisizlik yeni bir ten haline geldi\u011finde. An\u0131lar derine itildi\u011finde, bellek s\u00f6n\u00fck bir filmin k\u0131r\u0131k yank\u0131lar\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde. Derinli\u011fimiz yoz bir hoyratl\u0131\u011fa teslim olup kendini y\u00fczeye hapsetti\u011finde, k\u00f6t\u00fcc\u00fcl ahmakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n y\u00fczeyinde bir su kabarc\u0131\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde. Her \u015fey o s\u0131radan k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ve ahmakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcc\u00fc g\u00fcc\u00fcne \u00f6zenecek kadar s\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde.
\nO halde belki \u015fimdi Ferit Edg\u00fc\u2019y\u00fc, \u201c\u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n \u00d6yk\u00fcs\u00fc\u201dn\u00fc yeniden okuman\u0131n zaman\u0131d\u0131r. \u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131 yeniden tan\u0131man\u0131n, sevmenin zaman\u0131d\u0131r. Belki b\u00f6ylelikle hat\u0131rlar\u0131z nas\u0131r tutmu\u015f bir inceli\u011fin derinli\u011fini, b\u00f6ylelikle hat\u0131rlar\u0131z ya\u015fam\u0131n kambur sevincini.<\/p>\n

\u201cKamburdu.<\/em><\/p>\n

Anas\u0131z babas\u0131z bir kambur. Bunca ac\u0131y\u0131, yoksullu\u011fu, yoksunlu\u011fu, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015fayan sanki o de\u011fildi. Kendince bir ya\u015fam kurmas\u0131n\u0131 becermi\u015f ender ki\u015filerdendi. Bunu, bug\u00fcn, yar\u0131m y\u00fczy\u0131l sonra s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Benli\u011fin, insan olman\u0131n s\u0131k\u00e7a unutulan y\u00fcz\u00fc gibidir \u00c7ak\u0131r; kendince ya\u015fayan, ya\u015fama, dirime dokunan k\u0131r\u0131k bir insan. Her k\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u0131\u015f\u0131k yay\u0131lan ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir insan.<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r ya\u015fama boyun e\u011fmi\u015f, yazg\u0131s\u0131na katlanm\u0131\u015f biri de\u011fildi. Neye boyun e\u011fecekti ki? Boyun e\u011fmek, bir ba\u015fka ya\u015fam\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kabul etmek demekti. O ise, ah\u0131rdaki atlar\u0131yla, bah\u00e7esine ekti\u011fi salata-so\u011fanla \u00f6zde\u015f, ak\u015famlar\u0131, babamla diz dize ayn\u0131 yemekleri yer, ayn\u0131 rak\u0131y\u0131 yudumlarken, hi\u00e7bir \u015feye, hi\u00e7 kimseye boyun e\u011fmiyordu.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Ya\u015fama eme\u011fi ve kat\u0131ks\u0131z benli\u011fiyle dokunan biri \u00c7ak\u0131r; neye, kime boyun e\u011fsin ki? Terk edilmi\u015fli\u011fini, azlardan az olu\u015funu \u00fcreterek, \u00fcretti\u011fini, elinin erdi\u011fini severek a\u015fm\u0131\u015f biri. Belki de bir olarak, b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015ferek sevmek dedi\u011fimizi de a\u015fm\u0131\u015f biri.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ak\u0131r ve ku\u015fams\u0131z, \u00e7\u0131plak bir tay.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n sa\u011f elinde, her zaman boynuna ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u00fcrden b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir mendil var.<\/em><\/p>\n

Tay\u0131n terini siliyor. Taya, bir sevgiliye ya da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocu\u011fa bakar gibi bak\u0131yor.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

B\u00f6yle severek, sevgiyle yeni bir dil \u00f6rerek, insan\u0131 hoyratl\u0131\u011fa iten o ha\u015fin ve egemen lisana direniyor \u00c7ak\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>\u201cBa\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n saray\u0131, k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fc, yal\u0131s\u0131, evi, yuvas\u0131 varsa, benim ve atlar\u0131m\u0131n da bir ah\u0131r\u0131 var, diyor sanki. Saraylara, k\u00f6\u015fklere, yal\u0131lara, evlere ve bunlar\u0131n sahiplerine meydan okur bir tavr\u0131 var bu foto\u011frafta.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Etraf\u0131m\u0131zda az da olsa vard\u0131r \u00c7ak\u0131r gibi insanlar. Genellikle g\u00f6rmeyiz onlar\u0131. Dilsizdir onlar. Kamburdur. K\u00f6rd\u00fcr. G\u00f6r\u00fcnmezdir. Bir a\u011fac\u0131, bir hayvan\u0131, bir akarsuyu, bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu, bir umudu, evet, bir olas\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 savunurken \u015f\u00f6yle bir \u00e7arparlar g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcze. Sonra ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7eviririz yine g\u00fcn\u00fc kaplayan t\u00fckeni\u015fimize, ya\u015fam dedi\u011fimiz o dipsiz endi\u015feye. Naif sava\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7inde k\u0131r\u0131k b\u0131rak\u0131r\u0131z onlar\u0131. \u00d6yk\u00fcleri mi? Ya anlat\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r ya akla d\u00fc\u015fmeden unutulmu\u015ftur. Bask\u0131n kirlili\u011fin alt\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r an\u0131lar\u0131, masallar\u0131 ve \u00f6yk\u00fcleri. Biri g\u00fcn y\u00fcz\u00fcne \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131k\u00e7a\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em>\u201c\u00c7ak\u0131r, \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00f6\u015fe\u011finde. G\u00f6zleri yar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sanki \u00f6l\u00fcrken akl\u0131na bir \u015feyler gelmi\u015f (\u00f6rne\u011fin bana anlataca\u011f\u0131 bir masal).<\/em><\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyor.<\/em><\/p>\n

Bana m\u0131?<\/em><\/p>\n

Anlataca\u011f\u0131 masala m\u0131?<\/em><\/p>\n

Yoksa, birazdan ard\u0131nda b\u0131rakaca\u011f\u0131 ya\u015fama m\u0131?<\/em><\/p>\n

Yoksa, solu\u011funu ensesinde duydu\u011fu \u00f6l\u00fcme mi?<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcme olmal\u0131. <\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcme: \u2018Benimki gibi bir ya\u015fam \u00fczerinde senin ne hakk\u0131n olabilir ki?\u2019\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Oysa ya\u015fam\u0131 k\u0131ymetlendiren, derinle\u015ftiren tam da onlar\u0131n \u00f6yk\u00fcleridir.<\/p>\n

Edg\u00fc\u2019n\u00fcn sat\u0131rlar\u0131nda ayd\u0131nl\u0131k ve buruk bir anlat\u0131yla ku\u015fat\u0131lan \u00c7ak\u0131r gibi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karsak ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131zdan, \u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n at kokan elleri i\u015flemese topra\u011f\u0131, tutmasa rak\u0131 kadehini; \u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n masallar\u0131 kalbin kuyusunu derinle\u015ftirmese, dokunmasa bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun an\u0131lar\u0131na, \u00c7ak\u0131r insana ait bir umudu f\u0131s\u0131ldamasa suya, topra\u011fa ve onu unutanlara\u2026 \u00c7ak\u0131r olmasa\u2026 Her \u015fey hoyrat\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imiz kaskat\u0131\u2026 Kalp endi\u015fe ve korkudan ibaret bir yumak. Umut \u00f6l\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n at\u0131.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u00f6\u015fe\u011findeki \u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n ba\u015fucunda<\/em><\/p>\n

At\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6ne e\u011fik.<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00c7ak\u0131r\u2019\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc koklar gibi.<\/em><\/p>\n

At\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde \u00e7ok az insanda g\u00f6r\u00fclen ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn.<\/em><\/p>\n

Sanki a\u011fl\u0131yor.<\/em><\/p>\n

Ya da birazdan a\u011flayacak.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Her sayfas\u0131 esin dolu bir ay dilerim.<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>Ferit Edg\u00fc, Eyl\u00fcl\u00fcn G\u00f6lgesinde Bir Yazd\u0131<\/em>, Sel Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, 2013, 108 s. <\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cO, yaln\u0131zca vard\u0131. Orda. Ya\u015fam\u0131n i\u00e7inde.\u201d \u00a0Her \u015fey hoyratla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda duru \u00f6yk\u00fclere olan ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z art\u0131yor. Her yeri endi\u015fe ve \u00f6fke b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 Endi\u015fe, ya\u015fam\u0131n temel d\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc haline geldi\u011finde. Ellerimiz kayg\u0131dan hissizle\u015fti\u011finde, g\u00f6zlerimiz ya\u015fam\u0131n kendisini g\u00f6rmeyecek kadar k\u00f6rle\u015fti\u011finde; s\u00f6zc\u00fckler yetmedi\u011finde, sesler bir t\u00fcr kakofoniye, komik \u0131sl\u0131klara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde\u2026 An\u0131lar bile rengini de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011finde. Kalbin kuyusunda sadece bulan\u0131k bir karanl\u0131k g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde\u2026 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":632,"featured_media":58538,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8966,38,513,510,7178],"tags":[7222,8997,8996],"class_list":["post-58537","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-230-sayi","category-dergi-sayilari","category-kitapcil","category-surekli-bolumler","category-ucuncu-tekir-sahis","tag-anil-ceren-altunkanat","tag-eylulun-golgesinde-bir-yazdi","tag-ferit-edgu"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/58537","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/632"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=58537"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/58537\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/58538"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=58537"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=58537"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=58537"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}