{"id":64929,"date":"2025-04-30T00:00:09","date_gmt":"2025-04-29T21:00:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/?p=64929"},"modified":"2025-04-28T16:20:10","modified_gmt":"2025-04-28T13:20:10","slug":"boykot-gunlerinde-ask","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/2025\/04\/30\/boykot-gunlerinde-ask","title":{"rendered":"Boykot g\u00fcnlerinde a\u015fk"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc tekir \u015fah\u0131s\/ An\u0131l Ceren Altunkanat<\/strong><\/p>\n

Hayda, \u015fimdi a\u015fk da nereden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, diyeceksiniz. G\u00fcndem her g\u00fcn bizi daha da s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, daha da \u00f6fkelendirir ve y\u0131prat\u0131rken. De\u011fil a\u015fka, g\u00fclmeye bile derman bulamazken. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fmak, okumak, yazmak, konu\u015fmak bile \u00e7o\u011fu g\u00fcn anlams\u0131z gelirken.<\/p>\n

Bahardan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, derim size. Soluk alma ihtiyac\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Uzakla\u015f\u0131p g\u00fc\u00e7 toplama \u00e7abas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Bir umuttan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u015eimdilik bir umutla g\u00f6nl\u00fc ok\u015fay\u0131p, ba\u015fka bir ya\u015fam\u0131n olana\u011f\u0131na inanmak ve hatta o ya\u015fam u\u011fruna sava\u015fmak i\u00e7in g\u00fc\u00e7 toplayabiliriz, olmaz m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Bakal\u0131m, belki olur.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Hep d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm, bir a\u015fk ka\u00e7 a\u015fktan do\u011far? Ka\u00e7 a\u015fk y\u00fcklenir, ka\u00e7 ya\u015fam\u0131n tortusunu ta\u015f\u0131r? Bu kadar \u00e7o\u011ful ve bu kadar biricik nas\u0131l olur? Bu kadar \u0131ss\u0131z ve bu kadar kalabal\u0131k nas\u0131l olabilir? Nedir bir a\u015fk\u0131 bu kadar inan\u0131lmaz ama ayn\u0131 zamanda tan\u0131d\u0131k k\u0131lan? Her a\u015fk i\u00e7in s\u00f6ylenen her \u015feyi, konu o bir a\u015fka gelince yads\u0131maya zorlayan? Bir a\u015fk\u0131, her a\u015fk\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fullu\u011funa hapsedip yine de yaln\u0131z ve biricik k\u0131lan nedir?<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan\u0131n dermans\u0131z yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir yan\u0131lsamas\u0131 m\u0131? \u0130\u00e7teki bulan\u0131k aynalar\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri mi? B\u00fcy\u00fc m\u00fc? Bir b\u00fcy\u00fcye duyulan \u00f6zlem mi?<\/p>\n

\u201cBu tensel bir d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnl\u00fck de\u011fildi, daha derin bir efsundu, sanki hi\u00e7 akl\u0131na getirmedi\u011fi yeni bir kader \u015fimdi onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu; Antonio\u2019yu ad\u0131m ad\u0131m s\u00fcr\u00fckleyerek, kar\u015f\u0131 konulmaz bir \u015fiddetle me\u00e7hul ve karanl\u0131k bir yar\u0131na \u00e7ekiyordu. Durumu neresinden ele al\u0131rsa als\u0131n bir \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f yolu bulam\u0131yordu. Onu tek bekleyen bitmek bilmeyen \u00f6fke, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrme, k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131k, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131yd\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir A\u015fk,<\/em> bir saplant\u0131n\u0131n roman\u0131. Y\u0131llar\u0131n y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yoksunlukla beslenen bir saplant\u0131n\u0131n; k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131ktan, yaln\u0131zl\u0131ktan, eziklikten \u2013 ve ezmekten \u2013 beslenip palazlanan bir saplant\u0131n\u0131n roman\u0131. Bir A\u015fk<\/em>, i\u00e7inde her a\u015fk\u0131 bar\u0131nd\u0131ran, her a\u015fk\u0131n i\u00e7inde bar\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7aresizli\u011fin roman\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tutkulu kavu\u015fmalara, f\u0131s\u0131ldanan sevda s\u00f6zlerine yer yok bu a\u015fkta. Hoyrat. \u00c7o\u011fu kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z. \u00c7\u0131karc\u0131. Vah\u015fi. Kaypak. Ka\u00e7ak. D\u00fczenbaz. Umursamaz. Ula\u015f\u0131lmaz.<\/p>\n

\u201cNe kadar ger\u00e7ekti, ne kadar saft\u0131, ne kadar g\u00fczeldi. Ona asla ula\u015famayacakt\u0131. K\u0131z d\u0131\u015far\u0131dayd\u0131, yabanc\u0131yd\u0131, ba\u015fka bir insanl\u0131\u011fa aitti, ula\u015f\u0131lamazd\u0131\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

Ama bir o kadar a\u015fk. Hepimizin bildi\u011fi, hepimizin dilini yakan a\u015fk. \u00c7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u00e7urumla, kabullenilmi\u015f ama vazge\u00e7ilemeyen \u00e7aresizli\u011fiyle\u2026 Bilinen sonun hep g\u00f6rmezden gelinmesiyle\u2026 Bilineni yalanc\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karacak b\u00fcy\u00fcye ko\u015fan \u00f6zlemiyle\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cH\u0131zla ka\u00e7an a\u011fa\u00e7lar ifadesi onun a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131n ko\u015fullar\u0131na uyuyordu: budalaca ve \u00e7aresiz a\u015fk\u0131na. \u015eimdi k\u0131za do\u011fru h\u0131zla yol al\u0131yordu ama bir yandan da orada onu yeni tedirginlikler, hor g\u00f6rmeler, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 bekliyordu. Ama o yine de soluk solu\u011fa ko\u015fuyor, tek bir dakika kaybetmemek i\u00e7in aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcyle gaza bas\u0131yordu.\u201d<\/p>\n

Evet ya, ko\u015fmaz m\u0131 ki\u015fi felaketine bir kurtar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n kollar\u0131na at\u0131l\u0131rcas\u0131na? Bir a\u015fk b\u00f6yledir i\u015fte, her a\u015fk gibi\u2026 Ve sonra birden yorulmaz m\u0131 insan g\u00fcnlerce yoku\u015f yukar\u0131 ko\u015fup tam vard\u0131m derken bir anda tepe taklak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya yuvarlanmaktan? Yorulmaz m\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u201cHay\u0131r art\u0131k b\u00f6yle devam etmek m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil art\u0131k ya\u015fam\u0131yorum art\u0131k \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yorum art\u0131k yemiyorum art\u0131k uyumuyorum art\u0131k insanlar bana konu\u015fuyor ama ben onlar\u0131 dinlemiyorum robot gibi \u00f6ylece duruyorum art\u0131k ben kendim de\u011filim kendimi mahvediyorum bu k\u0131z\u0131 terk etmem gerekiyor haydi haydi adam ol bu lanet olas\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck di\u015fi \u00e7ek at birka\u00e7 ay ba\u015fka bir k\u0131z ara iki tane dene \u00fc\u00e7 tane b\u0131rak kenara koydu\u011fun \u00fc\u00e7 kuru\u015fu da harca en hay\u0131rl\u0131 harcad\u0131\u011f\u0131n para o olacakt\u0131r yeter art\u0131k dayanam\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n

Dayan\u0131r oysa, dayanacak. Zira a\u015fkt\u0131r, saplant\u0131d\u0131r kendini dayatan. Bir kad\u0131na, bir erke\u011fe duyulan \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131l\u0131k de\u011fildir bu; ya\u015fama duyulan k\u00f6sn\u00fcl arzudur. Vazge\u00e7ilmez olan, bir a\u015fk\u0131 her a\u015fktan ay\u0131ran ve her a\u015fk\u0131 biricik k\u0131lan \u015fey bir bedene de\u011fil, ya\u015fama dokunu\u015fudur insan\u0131n. Parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 vantuz gibi ya\u015fama, dirime g\u00f6mmesidir; budur bir ba\u015fkas\u0131na \u2013 ula\u015f\u0131lamaz ba\u015fkas\u0131na \u2013 y\u00f6nelik saplant\u0131n\u0131n do\u011fas\u0131. En az\u0131ndan budur o b\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn bir k\u0131sm\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cVe ne pi\u015fmanl\u0131k ne de utan\u00e7 hissetti, sadece yeniden nefes almaya ve ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n

Kendini \u00f6yle b\u00f6yle kabul ettirir. Ya\u015famdaki bir\u00e7ok \u015fey gibi; ya\u015fam\u0131n dayatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir\u00e7ok \u015fey gibi. Se\u00e7imlerimizin kas\u0131p kavuran kavray\u0131\u015f\u0131 gibi. Herkesin kaybetti\u011fi bir oyunda g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek pes etmek gibi. Yoku\u015fa ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u015fe al\u0131\u015fmak gibi. Saplant\u0131n\u0131n, sava\u015f\u0131n ve ya\u015fam\u0131n ta kendisi gibi.<\/p>\n

\u201cAh, bunca zaman sonra. Ate\u015fkes. Yenilmi\u015f bile olsa. \u0130kinci ve son yenilgi. Ama bozguna u\u011fram\u0131\u015f ordu bile sava\u015f bitince derin bir nefes al\u0131r. Sessizlik, kalbi art\u0131k g\u00fcm g\u00fcm atm\u0131yor, sadece \u015furadan buradan dumanlar t\u00fct\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

Hep d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fcm, bir a\u015fk ka\u00e7 a\u015fktan do\u011far? Ka\u00e7 a\u015fk y\u00fcklenir, ka\u00e7 ya\u015fam\u0131n tortusunu ta\u015f\u0131r bir a\u015fk? Ka\u00e7 a\u015fkta kavu\u015fur bir a\u015fka, ka\u00e7 sava\u015fta var eder kendini? Ve sever di\u011ferini?<\/p>\n

Her sayfas\u0131 esin dolu bir ay dilerim.<\/p>\n

Dino Buzzati, \u00e7eviren Eren Cendey, Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, s. 280<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc tekir \u015fah\u0131s\/ An\u0131l Ceren Altunkanat Hayda, \u015fimdi a\u015fk da nereden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, diyeceksiniz. G\u00fcndem her g\u00fcn bizi daha da s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r, daha da \u00f6fkelendirir ve y\u0131prat\u0131rken. De\u011fil a\u015fka, g\u00fclmeye bile derman bulamazken. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fmak, okumak, yazmak, konu\u015fmak bile \u00e7o\u011fu g\u00fcn anlams\u0131z gelirken. Bahardan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, derim size. Soluk alma ihtiyac\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Uzakla\u015f\u0131p g\u00fc\u00e7 toplama \u00e7abas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Bir umuttan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":632,"featured_media":64930,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[10109,38,513,510,7178],"tags":[7222,5261,10128,10129,7296],"class_list":["post-64929","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-253-sayi","category-dergi-sayilari","category-kitapcil","category-surekli-bolumler","category-ucuncu-tekir-sahis","tag-anil-ceren-altunkanat","tag-can-yayinlari","tag-dino-buzzati","tag-eren-cendey","tag-ucuncu-tekir-sahis"],"acf":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/64929","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/632"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=64929"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/64929\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/64930"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=64929"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=64929"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bilimvegelecek.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=64929"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}